Patience.

Patience i a big virtue to have.
I try to practice patience but it does not always seem to work out for me.


I feel like i need a therapist. I need a change of scenery, i Need to be alone.


I would like to feel myself. I do not feel like i know who i am with because i am just lost yet so sure.


wtffffff i feel like my hormones are just INSAAANE right now

maybe i just need to situate my life, get a boyfriend, quit my job and by normal....?

i dont understand why this concept is so farfetched to me.

New York, New York

So its been about a month since i got back from New York...the only thing i have to say about that trip is, soon. it was amazing though, i really do not think i've ever had so much fun. The whole experience was so new and so unline anything i had ever done before. That and the fact that the city is amazing, i felt like i belong there. Everything about it caters perfectly to my lifestyle.
From the moment that we got to Fort Lauderdale airport, the vacation really launched and we were on this amazing natural high that was unlike other experience. the day we got there we had lunch in Times Square in the Roxy Diner and went to the Museum of Modern Art. That night we got all glammed up and went for drink and the W Hotel and the most amazing pastrami sandwhich at Carnegie Deli, WOW! i STILL think about this sandwich it was insane!!!
The second day we went on the Sex and the City Tour and had dinner at Buddahkan which was also fantastic! OMG such amazing environment and probably the most beautiful restaurant i have ever been inside of, they really know how to do dining in New York. After dinner, we stayed in SoHo and went to a place called One. We wanted to go to the Gansevoort but DAMN they are so strict with ID's there...
We went to a Yankees VS Red Sox game, in the bronx! we had soo much fun that night, especially after we were on such a good vibe from having bought so many amazing shoes & spending such a good day in Jersey! That night was too fun, we went to a few bars in the bronx where we fit right in...we ended the night at Carnegie Deli again (Pastrami again DUH!)
The last 3 days that we were there were basically spent in TopShop in Soho and in the Village. We went to Chinatown and ate in Lombardi's in Little Italy. we visited the MET but it was a dissapointment because the costume institute exhibition had just been taken out that sunday! The last thing we did was go to Madame Tussads...but probably the most amazing and one of the most out of body experiences i have had was being in Times Square in the middle of the night. we didnt have any concept of time nor fear, we just did it and it was amazing.

p.s. for my speech class, im going to write about that experience.

LOVELOVELOVENY!!!

Ohh The World of Dior.

So, this is my third week at Christian Dior. i absolutely love it. it is exactly what i was expecting yet not what i expected at all. I feel such an incomparable feeling when im there. Ofcourse, i get bored sometimes but when i am working hard i feel like i could be there doing what im doing forever. It is so strange to think that i am an intern at Christian Dior. for so long i had pictured myself on the outside of this field that to finaly be submerged in it with no shame feels incredible.

I feel that this has come full circle to truly bring my life together to where it should be. I feel complete when i am surrounded by such amazing things even doing the stupid busy work of an intern, i still feel like this is what i should be doing. The more experience i get in the real work-force the more i see that i do not want someone on top of me telling me what to do, its quite frustrating to know that there are so many stupid rules to follow. in all of my previous jobs ive never really encountered this problem because all of my bosses have been lenient enough that they give us the control of the reigns but Dior is so huge that for this to happen is next to impossible.

My fashion sense has expanded very quickly, all of a sudden i feel so creative, truly i feel eccentric i feel vibrant and ready to take on the world its suchh an amazing feeling that i cannot wait to see what else is in store for me. i have absorbed so much information about not only procedures but the lines and the history of Dior that i feel like i have unlocked a brand new untapped area in my brain that is just so thirsty for more fashion knowledge. my life is so amazing right now that there is NO way that i would ever trade it in for anything after all of the amazing experiences that i have had not to mention to date but that i know that are waiting for me as well.

So, its been a while...

So, it has in fact been about a month or more since i have last written in here, and plenty has changed. For one, i am no longer on the blind path towards becoming a lawyer. my life has literally changed overnight. i wish i would have kept this up-to-date, oh well i guess i shall just fill you in between the lines. on new years eve, i went to this catering with my sister and the woman in charge of fashion merchandising for Johnson & Wales was there, Debra, well she said to me on that fateful night..
"How are you doing Emily, What are you studying?"
i replied"Hi Debra, i'm well. I'm going to FIU, im studying Sociology."
she was not hesitant nore discrete in her response, "oh, nice."
i noticed the perplexion in her face and i was quick to add that i hoped to become a lawyer.
then, as simplistic as small talk can be she simply said, "Well, you are going to be a very fashionable lawyer."
THAT! exactly that small little sarcasm rocked my world. i went home that night with a head full of doubts, i began to think about taking summer classes at the art institute or doing something to straighten myself out.
well, a few days passed and come that sunday night, i had an epiphany. i got home from work and started looking up schools and seeing what my options were. i narrowed it down to one.
Monday morning i woke up, got dressed in my chicest corporate attire and i went to see Debra. By the end of the nerve wracking and very emotional meeting, i had an appointment for an interniship at Christian Dior that Wednesday, exactly one week after New Years.
Well, given that karma is on my side, i got the internship and i am now in the process of communicating with Human Resources for Dior in New York, they are trying to get the paper work and all of the necessary requirements together so that i can start ASAP!
well, as far as school goes, that Monday of the meeting i also dropped my 7 class load schedule which encompassed very intricate classes in the subjects of political science and sociology, all to follow my dream to be somebody...

If I could Fast Forward...

I am DESPERATE for this week to be over. that would truly be the most amazing thing to happen, this semester has really been on complete opposite's of the spectrum in every aspect. i wish i could fast forward past finals week and get an A+ in all of my classes. i do not really have much to worry about but man, its frying me.

so, this weekend i have every intention of really kicking my feet up and taking myself on a nice little mental hiatus. i have deserved it, the same way that i really deserve my grades this semester...and to think that they are only getting better!

which makes me think, i wish a could fast forward law school too...except in the really good parts ;]

Confession.

so i realized that i titled my first blog under my obsession. i had every intention of talking about twilight for minutes on end but somehow i totally got side tracked when it came down to the writing process. yes, my obsession has become twilight. i eat breathe and drem of it. some find it pathetic some find it crazy, i believe it to be me. it is an attraction so undeniable and predictable, i should have never second guessed the forbidden fruit.
only to add to my turnmoil Catherine Hardwicke had to be so unruly as to choose the moct beautiful man i have ever seen to play the most beautifully twisted characted ever created, the combination is lethal i tell you. consequently, my social life has gone down the drain. my money...to the theaters.
i am a patron of the arts, undeniably. i am bound to them as they are to me. i let stories and works of arts completely envelope me for hours and sometimes days on end. if something moves me, i let it be. i am ruled by my passions and my desires. art is within me. and what a beautiful time to be, twilight and art basel! i hope i can make it out this year too bad it had to be on the worst weekend of life ever..finals suck.
p.s. i got a new job at a kids store.
www.thespiderandthefly.com i pretty stoked, i just hope it works out i hate to mislead people.

My Obsession.

So...My first blog.
This is truly almost as exciting as i pictured it in my head. i really want to let you know, whoever is reading this..that the purpose of this blog is purely for my sae to entertain an idea that i have from time to time about writing things down. Well, this is me writing things down..
Lately things have been good. i truly managed to overcome or for that matter, get a hold of many things that have been plaguing me. Amongst them, the ever favortie topic for us young souls searching for the perfect fit, Love.
It is hard to be me. and by me i dont mean me specifically but rather, every girl that can find herself in me. a young, witty, & cute college girl with nothing but greatness waiting for her. i feel like ive done a pretty decent job at absorbing what is out there yet, there is so much to learn. it is an indeniable fact that every situation is its own. but it is so tempting to draw on the files from the past to simply attribute current situations to one of those familiar scenes. but as the story goes, life moves on and things change and people change.
which brings me to my next vital thing to write down. Change. it is something so continuous and unpredictable that the unattainable concept becomes static. it is an oxymoron of sorts, i believe. some things you dont want to change and others you cannot barely wait for it to happen. it is odd how humans can never just be fully satisfied, but perhaps if things didnt change so quickly we would possibly be all a little more content in our present situations.
I cant really say i have too much cause for complain though. school is good, my grades are holding up very graciously. My home is at peace, i feel good about everything coming my way at this point. especially considering the new attitude that has flourished independent of any desire for change. it sort of pertains to the book The Secret. you know, if you attract good things to youself by desiring them, they will come. well, essentially i want to bring knowledge into my life.
Sure, i am smart and i am cultured in all of the above but i want more than that. for the first time, in a very long time i am literally thirsty for knowledge. i cant read enough, i cannot discover enough. the world is mine and i have realized what a pity it was to be wasting it so selfishly.
anyways...i think this is a pretty good place to leave off of.
goodnight world
p.s. i am currently having a reading affair with Transformations by Anne Sexton (remixed fairy tales...watwatttt)