If I could Fast Forward...

I am DESPERATE for this week to be over. that would truly be the most amazing thing to happen, this semester has really been on complete opposite's of the spectrum in every aspect. i wish i could fast forward past finals week and get an A+ in all of my classes. i do not really have much to worry about but man, its frying me.

so, this weekend i have every intention of really kicking my feet up and taking myself on a nice little mental hiatus. i have deserved it, the same way that i really deserve my grades this semester...and to think that they are only getting better!

which makes me think, i wish a could fast forward law school too...except in the really good parts ;]

Confession.

so i realized that i titled my first blog under my obsession. i had every intention of talking about twilight for minutes on end but somehow i totally got side tracked when it came down to the writing process. yes, my obsession has become twilight. i eat breathe and drem of it. some find it pathetic some find it crazy, i believe it to be me. it is an attraction so undeniable and predictable, i should have never second guessed the forbidden fruit.
only to add to my turnmoil Catherine Hardwicke had to be so unruly as to choose the moct beautiful man i have ever seen to play the most beautifully twisted characted ever created, the combination is lethal i tell you. consequently, my social life has gone down the drain. my money...to the theaters.
i am a patron of the arts, undeniably. i am bound to them as they are to me. i let stories and works of arts completely envelope me for hours and sometimes days on end. if something moves me, i let it be. i am ruled by my passions and my desires. art is within me. and what a beautiful time to be, twilight and art basel! i hope i can make it out this year too bad it had to be on the worst weekend of life ever..finals suck.
p.s. i got a new job at a kids store.
www.thespiderandthefly.com i pretty stoked, i just hope it works out i hate to mislead people.

My Obsession.

So...My first blog.
This is truly almost as exciting as i pictured it in my head. i really want to let you know, whoever is reading this..that the purpose of this blog is purely for my sae to entertain an idea that i have from time to time about writing things down. Well, this is me writing things down..
Lately things have been good. i truly managed to overcome or for that matter, get a hold of many things that have been plaguing me. Amongst them, the ever favortie topic for us young souls searching for the perfect fit, Love.
It is hard to be me. and by me i dont mean me specifically but rather, every girl that can find herself in me. a young, witty, & cute college girl with nothing but greatness waiting for her. i feel like ive done a pretty decent job at absorbing what is out there yet, there is so much to learn. it is an indeniable fact that every situation is its own. but it is so tempting to draw on the files from the past to simply attribute current situations to one of those familiar scenes. but as the story goes, life moves on and things change and people change.
which brings me to my next vital thing to write down. Change. it is something so continuous and unpredictable that the unattainable concept becomes static. it is an oxymoron of sorts, i believe. some things you dont want to change and others you cannot barely wait for it to happen. it is odd how humans can never just be fully satisfied, but perhaps if things didnt change so quickly we would possibly be all a little more content in our present situations.
I cant really say i have too much cause for complain though. school is good, my grades are holding up very graciously. My home is at peace, i feel good about everything coming my way at this point. especially considering the new attitude that has flourished independent of any desire for change. it sort of pertains to the book The Secret. you know, if you attract good things to youself by desiring them, they will come. well, essentially i want to bring knowledge into my life.
Sure, i am smart and i am cultured in all of the above but i want more than that. for the first time, in a very long time i am literally thirsty for knowledge. i cant read enough, i cannot discover enough. the world is mine and i have realized what a pity it was to be wasting it so selfishly.
anyways...i think this is a pretty good place to leave off of.
goodnight world
p.s. i am currently having a reading affair with Transformations by Anne Sexton (remixed fairy tales...watwatttt)